Status update

Tomorrow morning I am seeing a G.I. specialist at New York Presbyterian Hospital / Cornell Medical Center.

Setting to rest my fears and those of several readers that there may be an impaction, a potentially life-threatening condition, there has been enough “activity”—not much, but enough—in the last couple of days to show that there is no danger of that. And this is true notwithstanding the continuation of pain, including at times severe, prolonged pain.

Indeed, on Monday the discomfort was so bad that I went to the emergency room at New York Presbyterian Hospital, hoping to be admitted as a patient. After I, accompanied by a friend, had been waiting for an hour, I was told that it would be three more hours before I saw a doctor, partly because the flu had swelled the ranks in the ER. Waiting that long was an unbearable prospect, and I left, thinking I would go back in the morning. Also, I was no longer feeling so bad. At home I felt even more comfortable, and checking into hospital no longer seemed necessary. But the next morning I had the worst episode so far, three continuous hours of very bad pain, and I decided again to go to the ER. But as I was dressing and preparing to go, the pain went away, and I decided once again not to go.

Also, there have been odd, positive signs in the last three days. Certain things in my condition seem to have subtly changed and to be improving. The change has been mental as well as physical; I’ve had a newly hopeful, positive feeling, even the midst of pain, discomfort, and sleeplessness. I have even entertained the thought that a healing has occurred and is, bit by bit, manifesting.

As for the continuation of the pain, there is a theory that the pain is due not to constipation, but a pressing of the cancer tumors on nerves.

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Terry Morris writes:

The theory of the tumors putting pressure on nerves, thus causing you severe pain and discomfort is very plausible.

After suffering a work-related injury in 2006 which caused a herniated disc in my neck, I spent about six months with virtually no use of my left arm, and a year with very limited use of the arm. During the majority of this time I suffered from severe chronic pain and constant discomfort, and my left arm shrank noticeably due to my inability to use it. Also my left hand went numb, beginning at the fingertips and on the surface, and ultimately working its way up my hand to my forearm. All of this was caused by pressure on a nerve due to the herniated disc. The only relief I could get from the pain (barring surgery, which a doctor strongly advised me against) was to get an occasional shot of steroids when the pain and agony I was suffering became unbearable. So I can relate to your suffering—the severe pain, the inability to find a comfortable position to get into, the inability to rest, the anxiety associated with it all, and so forth—and am very sympathetic. I will continue to pray for you.

LA replies:

“… the severe pain, the inability to find a comfortable position to get into, the inability to rest, the anxiety associated with it all…” You know me, sir.

January 18

Thomas O. writes (January 16):

I was so happy to read that you were entertaining the thought that a healing had occurred and was bit by bit manifesting. First of all, that good attitude just might be what makes the whole thing click in. I view the feeling that one actually IS healed as taking the step toward God that leads to the healing’s finalization (it’s like that is the opening of the door that lets the healing in so that it can occur in real time in the present). I think you have done that, and you do have the healing. When I participated in the group prayer, I felt (like an answer) during that experience that you would get the healing, which would come in a way of “unfolding,” and that seems to be what is happening.

Posted by Lawrence Auster at January 16, 2013 06:22 PM | Send

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